I want to make this quick so... Hopefully I succeed, haha
I don't think Aaron and my friendship is doing too well. Neither of us are ANYTHING like we were when we first met. He's different because of his girlfriends or crushes and school. I'm different because of my emotional and mental crap. I feel like I'm talking to a different person and he probably thinks the same of me. I feel bad but not too bad because he's changed too. When we text, 1. it's only because he texted first, 2. it's always awkward and breif, 3. it always takes a while before he responds
We called today and it.. Uh.. Yeah, it was fucking horrid ._.
I didn't say anything unless he did and he wasn't sure wtf to talk about. I think we were both excited to finally call (it's been a while...) but then we actually did and it was like, "Oh... This is shit." He was able to escape the awkwardness by saying he had to take a shower. He said he'd call back but it's been at least 2 hours. I think we're both glad he made the excuse and "forgot" to call back.
All he talks about is his girlfriend and all I talk about is feeling like shit. I think he's sick of the depressing topics I pick, and I'm sick of his "head over heals" topics he picks.
I'm tempted to just talk about the situation to him. See what he says... Because our friendship is not improving. If anything, it's getting worse.
But, I'm worried he'll think I like him... I'd probably just tell him I do have a girlfriend so not to think the situation to be something it's not.
Well, I messaged Aaron. I just really didn't feel like messaging him but then he messaged me so, I decided to go ahead and do it. Then, I realized I didn't know what to say. After just typing without thinking, I got it. Here's what I sent him...
Aaron: Dang. That must've taken forever to write ya dork. Sorry I haven't been able to talk as much. My life got serious and I haven't been as able to let everything go and have fun talks.
Me: Thanks :3 (I was thanking him for calling me a dork) It's fine, I understand. I'm just kinda stumped how to kinda... eh, patch things up. Not sure how to word things, I'm tired.
Aaron: It'll all work out
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."