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So... I'm in a skype call with Sam as I typing this.
Well, Mary and I "are still in touch". We didn't talk but it was where she or I could message one another easily. Sam and I weren't, though. Well, Mary scared the hell out of me by sending a message saying, "Hey, you able to skype?"
I just sat there for a minute trying to understand that Mary had just messaged me. I said, "Sure, just a minute." She apparently had a new account and it was called a name I didn't recognize. I asked Mary if that was her. She then said something about changing genders and that this person wanted they/them pronouns. I had no clue who she was talking about and I immediately think of Sam. Yes. It was Sam she was talking about. You know what was kinda weirded me out about this? I gave "Sam" a unisex name as coincidence. That kinda freaks me out but... Eh. I'm more freaked out that I'm talking to her. I'm not going to use they/them pronouns because I'm not use to that and, it would confuse me. I will use those when talking to her. I don't mean it in any disrespect, I'm just in a hurry and kinda freaked out. I think it's obvious but, I'll just clarify. I have zero issues with Sam being transgender. She seems to identify as male but at the same time she didn't want He/Him pronouns. I also asked what name Sam wanted to go by (for example, if someone's birth name is Erica, they may go by Eric) but, she said she didn't know.
I'm going to be honest... I'm trying to decide if it's a phase.
Anyways though, I won't be trying to stay in touch. I will be nice, but I won't exactly be the one to start a conversation. It was just extreamly awkward for me. She had her friend there to distract her. We didn't really talk much. I showed her Zeppelin, she asked how I was, she mentioned how we hadn't talked in so long... Just little things like that. And idk... I just kinda lost the respect for her I use to have after the "incident". I have respect for her, just not much. We don't really click either and I don't trust that she's mature enough to really talk about "it".
Sorry for posting two times in one day. If you're like me, that'd be rather confusing.
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."