So, lately, I've noticed I haven't been acting right. It's more noticeable with certain people. It's noticeable with my mom, my sister, Emily, Aaron, and Jade. I don't know EXACTLY why... I see Cynthia tomorrow, so I will mention it to her if I remember. I'm use to myself getting panicked and me being like... Clearly depressed and just not very cheerful like usual. This is in a different way. I'm just being very aggressive. Like, if I'm happy I'm acting like I'm drunk or high. It's just this very exaggerated version of me. Same when I'm sad or etc. I don't remember anything like this... I think Aaron has noticed. Have you ever experienced anything like this? Aaron is going to this event which will be two days and he won't be able to text. I didn't really think much of it, I just asked him about it and it sounded really fun so, I was just being like, "Ehhh, I have to get back to studying tomorrow. Lucky". But he seemed to feel bad about it. I thought he didn't want to go or something and I kept asking him why and if he was nervous about it. He kept saying he wasn't nervous. So, I was pretty confused... I left it alone. But, now I think I get it. Here's why;
Aaron- Shit, I got to get to bed, it's 1:00am and I have to be up in 6 hours.
Me- Well then, noight and good luck with the event thingy.
Aaron - Sorry to leave so abruptly.. Sorry I won't get to talk for two days... So so sorry... Have an amazing few days, sleep amazingly! And I hope you have a good end of the week... Good noight! :)
Me- No problemo, noight! c:
So, I may be wrong but, I think he's caught on to my acting strange and feels bad to leave if he thinks I'm not doing my best. Idk. I'm not sure about an exact reason for this. Usually I'd just be sad like I was the past few days.
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."