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so yeah.. It happened again yesterday. Just like last time. but from different reasons. I'm fine now. but yesterday I spent the whole afternoon with Maya and I was fine the whole time. In the evening some other friends joined us (Mia as well) and I was fine for a short time wen they came and then suddenly I got all depressed. Mia noticed it right away (I could tell by the way she started to look at me every few seconds) and then I said something to her I shouldn't have. something that wasn't even her fault (it was her mom's fault) And she just took it. I'm really happy I'm me right now :P because if someone else would say something like that to her she/he'd probably be somewhere in a corner crying. (she's not a bully she just doesn't let anyone walk over her) I'm usually the one to calm her down but this time she just calmly listened to me and then her boyfriend calmed me down by explaining why things happened the way they did. So I decided I should go home so I asked a friend.. lets call him Lucas to take me home. I said goodbye to Mia and she asked me why I'm leaving (she wanted me to tell her what's wrong) but I couldn't say anything or I'd start to cry so I just bounced my shoulder up and down, hugged her and turned away to say bye to Maya. So when I got home I wrote an SMS to Mia and apologised and she said it's fine but that she's worried about me and she wanted me to tell her what's wrong. but I couldn't. she has enough problems with her family and I couldn't put this on her as well. And then Maya texted me. She didn't say anything but she probably knew I wasn't fine. I don't know if she noticed it as well or if Mia asked her if something happened but I think she was trying to get me to feel better.
''Don't be afraid of the future.''
''change the path your life will follow''
''I have found so much beauty in the dark as I have found a lot of horror in the light''
Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.