This is probably gonna be short. I have no idea what to write because I have no idea how I feel. I just know something is wrong. I feel betrayed by all my friends even though no one did anything to make me feel like that. I'm trying to find reasons for feeling like that. But I just come up with weird stuff that probably isn't even true. I'm tired of everything and everyone. I don't want to end my life but I do want to just stop existing. Just on a way that everything I did in the past would stay. And people would know who I was. but no one would be sad because I'm gone.
Ow.. and my confidence has gone to shit. No idea why. I mean I had a bunch of reasons to loose my confidence (like loosing hair, getting all the scars...) but I was fine until now. and now, it's not just about my appearance but about every-freaking-thing.
''Don't be afraid of the future.''
''change the path your life will follow''
''I have found so much beauty in the dark as I have found a lot of horror in the light''
Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.