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NEW YEAR'S EVE:
I really did not think I'll have that much fun as I did. I was with Lisa, Lisa's boyfriend (Let's name him Žak) Lucy, Lucy's boyfriend (Liam) and Žak's friend Ryan. Audrey was supposed to go with us but she got ''sick''. A week before New year she already wrote that she doesn't feel too good so I knew what she was up to. I just said in a joke that she has to get sick fast so she'll feel better for new year's eve. But she always does that so I knew she's gonna get ''sick''. I'd kind of understand if she'd say that she doesn0t feel mentally strong enough to get out of the house or something like that. I wouldn't be too happy since we've been talking about spending New year together for quite some time now so she could have given us heads up about this earlier. But I would understand this better than those ''sick'' excuses that she has all the time. I did already talk to her about this and told her it's not ok that she's always coming up with those obvious excuses. But she's still doing it anyways.
Back to the actual event :3 So we were at the seaside. I was there for a few days already and others were supposed to come on 31 of December. Audrey and Lucy were supposed to drive but because Audrey was now out of the picture we were a driver down. Well.. actually we had enough of drivers but we didn't have any cars. So we actually thought we're gonna have to cancel everything because of this. But Žak managed to convince his parents to lend him their car so everything turned out fine. We made a plan that we're gonna be in our camp for some time but when the clock will actually turn 12.00 (midnight) we'll be at the city and Ryan, Lucy and Liam will jump in the sea (it was freezing so I was definitely not going to do that haha) But our lazy asses were to lazy to even get to the city. It was about 11.30 and Žak was like ''ok so where should we go? *and he listed all the nearby cities we could go to*'' And they were all discussing it and I just said ''I have a better idea. we have a cake, we have a champagne, let's just stay here'' they all agreed and someone said ''yeah I bet we can still see all the fireworks from here.'' And Žak said that we can find a recording of some firework on youtube and watch it on the computer. So he found a firework from Australia and we just watched that haha. We were too lazy to even cut the cake so we just took the forks and ate it without cutting it haha. Soo I have no idea how we thought we'd get to the city haha. Before and after that we just played some board games (I never won at anything hahahaha) And we had MANY discussions about everything and I loved them. But the conversation got to the euthanization of people. Like when they can't move or when something's really really wrong with them and if it's ok to euthanize them or not. And I just started thinking of Ana (the girl I shared a room with that became totally paralyzed because tumor cut off her brain and then died) So I asked them if we could not talk about this but Žak was in the middle of some theory of his or something and didn't even notice anything was wrong so he said ''yeah in a sec, let me just finish this'' but by the time he finished it was too late and my eyes were already teary. Lisa noticed and asked me why am I crying but if I'd tell them I'd start crying & I didn't really want our new year to be sad haha so I just said ''I'm not'' and Ryan started to laugh because he thought I was joking or something but then everyone just got really serious all of a sudden because they noticed I'm not joking (btw joking/joke is a really weird word hahaha jok means cry in Slovenian ahah) so I tried to change the subject but Lisa didn't buy it and asked me again what's wrong. Fortunately, Lucy got that I don't want to talk about it and went with my plan of changing the subject so others just went with it then. And in few seconds we were all laughing again so it all turned out fine :3
I invited my brother to come with us but he wasn't sure if he'd come. So I told him we're gonna go together somewhere else when he'll be sure he want's to come. But then he ended up spending his new year behind the computer because his friends went out to get drunk and he didn't want to do that so I'm sorry I didn't insist he'd come with me. He said one of his friends called him at 2am because the others got too drunk and the friend didn't know how to get them home. So my brother went out to help him get them home.
My parents were with Mia's mom and my mom said she saw Mia and asked her why she didn't go with me and Mia said I didn't invite her (which was totally not true. I asked her multiple times if she'd like to come with us). My mom knew I invited Mia so she told her that she knows that's not true and Mia just went away. I have no idea what's happening to Mia but I think I lost her and she's not coming back. I don't even know if I want her to. If she ever brakes up with that guy I think she'll come back but I'm not even sure if I'd except her. I went out of my ways to help her and she just doesn't care for it. So I'm done with her. We WERE best friends but we're not anymore.
I got my new guitar *-* :3 It's totally black and sooo beautiful ^-^ I'm still not sure what to draw on it, though.. But there's no hurry with that. So now I have an acoustic (the new one) and classic (the old one) guitar. I ordered a tuner and pick holder and capo for acoustic guitar (the new-black- one) from eBay but it says it'll take like 3 months for it to get here -.-'' It's way harder to play acoustic guitar then classic. The strings are way harder so my fingers start to hurt faster. But it sounds nicer so it's worth it x3
''Don't be afraid of the future.''
''change the path your life will follow''
''I have found so much beauty in the dark as I have found a lot of horror in the light''
Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.