so as you know I was at the sea side with my friends. I live under the mountains but I always wanted to live near the sea. I was planing to go to collage there but well.. my collage got held back for a year because of cancer. But we do have a place in camp there. so I go to the sea a lot. this time I went with my friends and I'm really happy we went because it got my mind off of the operation that's tomorrow. I literally didn't have time to feel ''depressed''. We left on Sunday at 5 in the morning. I almost didn't sleep that night. I went to bed at 1am and got woken up at 2.30. my brother went to the bathroom and fell. there was blood everywhere. he hit his head and my parents then took him to the hospital (in the middle of the night) and he got 2 stitches. I tried to go beck to sleep but I couldn't sleep + I had to get up at 4 because I didn't have anything packed yet (I was planing to do it before I went to bed but I ''wisely'' decided to try to do my makeup instead). so Mia picked me up at 5 and we tried to get in touch with Maya that we're on our way but she didn't pick up her phone. she overslept. Mia had to climb over the fence of her house to wake her up. And I almost killed her when I saw her. Then we picked up Maya's schoolmate (let's call her Ana) that had to wait for us because Maya freaking overslept -.-'' So yeah Mia is the only one with a drivers Licence (it's more difficult to get drivers licence here. you have to pass a few tests that are quite expensive+ you have to pass a few other stuff so all together it's about 1000€ just to get your licence. and you have to be 18 so Maya and Ana are not even old enough) and Mia has her licence for less then a year so it was her first time driving so far. But surprisingly we didn't even get lost. when we were there it was awesome. something was just happening all the time. We went to the beach, we went shopping and I bought a swimming suit. bottom on the men section of course haha.. I wanted to have a longer pants so it would cover up some of the scars on my leg and they didn't have anything like that on woman section. or we plaid cards or chill on the beach or well I didn't pause even for a second. so at the end of the day I was so tired I couldn't even read your post. I tried to but the words just didn't make sense. and I fell a sleep in few seconds when I stopped trying x) ow and surprisingly I got in touch with a friend I thought I was never going to see again. we used to hang out last summer but then collage started and he suddenly didn't have any time anymore. I thought it was just an excuse but now that he has some pause in collage he started to sent more snapchats and started to reply to the ones I sent. so on Sunday I sent a snapchat of the sea and he replied.. something like that he's jealous of us for being at the sea and I told him he can come and he said something like ''now you tell me'' and I replied that I got tired of inviting him places because he never has any time. and he said he has more time now. But I'm still not totally buying it. I mean he probably really was busy but I guess you can find an hour or two for friends from time to time.
so yeah.. yesterday we had to go home. and when we were packing I had a strange feeling like I'm forgetting something. but I checked everything twice and didn't find anything I'd forget. but when we were about to sit in the car I noticed I don't have my phone. My battery was dead so I couldn't ring it to find it. we searched everywhere. We looked for like an hour and at the end I found it on the bathroom shelf -.-'' you can imagine how annoyed I was.
here are some of the photos of the sea. they're not the best because I took them with my phone. Ana has some better ones on her camera but I didn't get them yet
''Don't be afraid of the future.''
''change the path your life will follow''
''I have found so much beauty in the dark as I have found a lot of horror in the light''
Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.