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**This is probably going to be my longest post. So, sorry about that...**
So, I got back from camping a day later than expected, Tuesday. I was really tired and was just happy I could still walk. It was a trip full a hiking and walking a lot. Last day, we walked everywhere, no driving. First few days we would hike up pretty steep trails or etc. So, yeah, I was quite tired. Aaron and I were texting and it was nothing special. That is, until I mentioned something from a previous conversation. In the previous conversation, he said he wanted to tell me something but wasn't sure if he could. I asked if it was for privacy reasons and he said no, it was because he was nervous. I asked why he was nervous and he just reminded me that, he wasn't sure if he could tell me. I was a bit confused but he said he'd tell me the next time we talk or so. Me practically being the definition of curious, I asked about it. He said, "Not yet...", so I went on to another topic. Later he said he had this weird ringing in his ear and after it past he felt nauseous, cold drafts, and emotional. Me being my turd little self, I said, "Aaron, I think you need to get a pregnancy test...". He laughed but said he was actually serious about it. So, once I got that it actually hurt enough for him to tell me (sometimes, I'll say something like, "My leg is numb..." or whatever just to change a topic which I originally thought he was doing. But, he wasn't). So, I started searching as to why that happened and how to fix it. A few questions on what it could be later, he says he thinks he knows what it is. I ask him what but he just randomly says, "This doesn't have anything to do with the ringing thing but, do you believe in..." and sent a gif of a ghost I always send when I tell him I'm watching a horror movie or something like that. I replied, "Yeah. Why?". He then went on to explain some of his experiences with them. After telling one or two stories, he asked, "Do you believe me or think I'm full of crap?" I honestly said I believe him. He explained that the story he told me was from around three years ago but, things like it are coming back. I asked for an example and he said I wouldn't believe him. I said something weird like, "I'm an open-minded human. Just say it". He said some examples that weren't too bad but said, "and that not even freaky part", I replied, "Freaky part, go". He told me. He then got worried about me believing him or not...again. I said, "Yes. Now stop being paranoid about what I think." He expanded on it some more, asking what I thought then...
Aaron : Shit. I shouldn't have said anything, I've weirded you out.
Me : *laughing* "Nope. You haven't. It'd take a lot more than that to weird me out. Well, for you.
A little bit more talking about it, and,
Aaron : I know you may look for something logical about this. How I may just be hallucinating it all to myself but some of the things that have happened are undeniable
Me : Well, if I didn't believe in ghosts, I'd probably assume something like that, yes, but that's not the case... In the way I "look for something logical", is it's reason.
(by "it" I mean ghost/spirit)
Aaron : I just fear I shouldn't have told you
Me : You're fine. I'm not an asshole Aaron -.- Well, I can be one when I want but, you know what I mean. I'm an asshole as in doing crap like making that pregnancy joke... What are you scared I could even do to you?
(we don't go to the same school so, I couldn't spread rumors or anything.)
Aaron : I don't know. Not believe me and unfriend me. If this makes you feel good, I've only told people I really trust
Me : *FINALLY TELLS HIM* Well, that brings up a topic I've been stalling from. I have abandonment issues. So with that, just know I wouldn't just "unfriend" you because of something like that. Fyi, not the, "I'll become attatchy", type of abandonment issues.
Aaron : Oh, I see. Ok! ...Well.
Me : Well.
And he tells me not to just think of him as all that just happened and not to treat him weird because of it. I told him not to look at me to be mental and we made a deal.
Now, this is where things get weird.
Aaron : Hey just curious... Can you hear me out?
Me : Mhm
Aaron : Does Jonathan mean anything to you?
Me : Yeah... Why?
Aaron : Strange. Uhm so, that's what I'm getting... Very strongly.
Me : Well... This will either make sense or not at all... Damon.
Aaron : Damon?
Me : Ok, it doesn't.
Aaron : There is emphasis on the word, yes
Me : FUCK. Ok, leave the Jonathan and Damon thing alone. No talking about that.
Aaron : Ok, sorry. Bad spirit?
Me : Well, I'm mad at it. If you figure out anything else from it, you have to tell me.
Aaron : I get a very strong sense of brotherhood... But I'm not fully sure.
Me : It has to do with my Maladaptive Daydreaming. And Jonathan is a brother of one of my characters... How does the whole spirit thing work? How does it tell you?
Aaron : Jesus, ok yeah. And telepathic. I ask a question and I get an answer in my brain. The hard thing is judging whether it's my brain giving the answer or the spirit.
Me : Why would it tell you about that?
Aaron : i don't know.. It works in weird ways.
(At this point I was annoyed with the spirit, but not Aaron (just to clarify).
Me : -.- Can it tell you about Damon's eyes?
Aaron : It's not telling me anything about Damon's eyes.
Me : Ok... I've only told two people about my daydreaming... I don't know why it would have anything to do with it.
Aaron : Well, spirits see a lot... The name Mary mean anything?
(I explain that it has to do with my abandonment issues (Mary and Sam. Btw, I do have an update on Sam...))
Aaron : Uhm. This whole time I've talked to you I've had a word popping in my head but thought it was just my brain... Just curious, how is your uncle?
Me : Which?
Aaron : I don't know, I just keep getting "uncle"
Me : One has past away but, I never got to know him. Others are doing fine.
Aaron : Oh...
Me : The name, Paul, ring a bell?
Aaron : Yup.
Me : Well that was his name...Does it recognize Kevin or Parker?
Aaron : Kevin, right off the bat
Me : Well, Kevin was my uncle's son.
Aaron : Oh... Hm. Interesting... Yeah Kevin poked out more that Parker.
Me : Parker doesn't have to do with the family. This may seem weird but is it even possible you're talking to my uncle?
Aaron : Yeah it is.
So, I go on to test that theory but, he was getting really tired, saying that taking to the spirit was quite draining of energy. I told him to stop and that I had no last questions. Once it was done, he told me the spirit he thinks was my uncle, wasn't the spirit he could sense in his room. He assumed it was a guardian. He read that Mediums (the correct label for him) have guardians and he had just recognized it.
A few texts later, I tell him to let me know if anything like "Jonathan" comes up again. He agreed and also asked that I don't treat him differently than before. I told him to pinkie promise he'd tell me and I'd pinkie promise to treat him like I normally would ( I would've either way, though) and so we did.
Just to clarify what happened...
Aaron explained a ringing in his ear and some symptoms afterward. He told me that the whole thing to do with spirits/ghosts had nothing to do with the ringing because he knew I'd connect the dots quickly. He thinks the ringing was because of either the guardian spirit or who we think might've been because of my uncle. He sensed the guardian spirit but didn't originally know why it was there. I think you can get the rest.
Now, Aaron isn't "weird". It's just that I wouldn't tell you about something completely normal if there wasn't a catch. I have "weird" friends but, i don't know, I don't feel like he is weird. He can't help that. Really, he's normal and pretty cool, that's just something unique. I never told him about my maladaptive daydreaming, he just knew I had it. And he never when into detail about the whole "Medium" thing until that happened. That was Tuesday night, the night I got back and so far it hasn't been awkward at all between us so, that's good :3
**Before I Could Type Up Actual Post**
So, you know Aaron? Well, this is about him. I can't type about it yet. I need to get some sleep. It's 3:30am as I type this. I'll type up what happened in the afternoon. And Lara, I'm really sorry I haven't been able to reply. I should also do that this afternoon. I'll explain too.
Well... Aren't I great at life. I am extreamly tired, I will update in the morning.
It's afternoon, but whatever. I can finally type this up. It'll probably be pretty long so...
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."