Well, I cried myself to sleep over Dexter... But I wonder, what if it was Jackie? Or you? Or Emily? I can barely handle a bunny I had for about a week... How the hell could I handle losing a best friend? I clearly don't know what to do when I lose someone other than constantly cry. So, basically I need to learn how to cope with loss... I looked it up some and it wasn't helpful for shit.
We're looking at bunnies today. My mom and I... I'm going to research healthy foods for them, how to handle them, and just how to care for them overall. I did some research but clearly I messed up somewhere. So far, the way I handle loss is finding something/one similar and letting my memory of who I lost, fade. Like when for all I knew I'd never see Zeppelin again...
So, what happened to Dexter...
I don't know. I really don't. He was acting weird for a while. He'd be jittery when hopping, like he's double-hop kinda...? It's hard to explain. He was acting weird this morning and I kinda had a feeling that he'd be gone when I got home. He didn't jump up to me when I came to the cage. He'd move a bit like he hopped to the other side of the cage but, he just seemed like he was really tired. I gave him some food and pet him for a bit them left for school. I came home it was obvious what was going on. He was stiff... I just cried and my mom kept saying she's sorry that this happened to me. I cried until I fell asleep and my parents buried him. Everytime I think about him my eyes get teary, like they are now.
I just woke up from a nap. Shiloh just laid on my stomach and I pet her. So yeah, sorry for any errors.
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."