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So, you know how I said things were normal between Aaron and I, even after the whole spirit thing? I don't think they are, for him. At first it seemed fine. Just a tiny bit off, but nothing big. I just thought he was busy with work and all. But, lately our conversations have been short. He will be gaming or watching tv/youtube. I usually wouldn't care, even if he takes a while to respond but, the responses are brief. I was use to maybe not talking to him everyday, but when we did talk, it'd be for hours because he could actually hold a conversation. Now he doesn't. I don't know if I'm just overthinking things but, still it's weird of him. And I know there the whole thing going on about possible relationship or whatever but, I'm seriously worried. I don't want you to think about that and make your guesses on it. I just need help with this. He could bring out a side of me that could be hurtful to him. It'd be hurtful to anyone. When I'm like that I sound threatening and like I almost have this hatred towards them. I only like that part of me went I actually need someone to fuck off but my friends don't deserve to deal with that.
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Ok, so, I was actually texting him while writing this up. It was easy with the slow and brief responses. I told him i was going to bed. I lied. I was just bored of the crappy "conversation". Reality is, I was kinda pissy. My bestfriend pissed me off earlier (we didn't fight for anything and it ended with me not really caring about it (so it's all good between us)). So, him doing that was getting on my nerves. You know how I made the comment about how tradition or routines kinda tell me that things are okay (on your birthday post)? Well, he's breaking that and I feel like something is wrong. Anyways though, I told him I was going to bed (like I said before) and he said, "Nooooo" then, "Fine -.-" and sent his usual goodnight message. I said, "Why you mad?! HEH? HEH AARON?!" (joking) and he said, "NOIGHT" and I thought he was going along with it but, did find that kinda weird. I said, "NOIGHT" back. Then he said, "Don't go to bed mad ;-;" I said I wasn't mad and he said I was and not to lie. I kept asking why he thought I was mad and he would respond saying, "because you are" and I just got annoyed with it and said, "ok, noight." and he said noight back.
I just want to stop talking for a while. Maybe if I give him a while to do his own thing, he'll actually have a real conversation with me.
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."