Two posts in one day again, sorry. Btw, this will make better sense if you read my last blog post first but, whatever.
So, I'm extreamly annoyed. I was really, REALLY struggling to hold back my anger a little bit ago. That was after the situation and I was trying to distract myself. I need to run some errands for Zeppelin. He's had issues shedding, he's okay right now but, I want to help him with it before it becomes an issue for him. I actually planned to do that yesterday but, decided today was better. Well, my family doesn't have enough money to get me a car. I have to borrow one of my parents' cars. We have two old shitty cars and one nice one. You can probably guess which of those cars I get to borrow. I don't really mind that, though. I mind the fact that I have to have a parent with me. I've tried to get my parents to let me drive on my own... Even to nearby places would be better. Nope.
So, I needed to run those errands, I needed to get my mind off of Nicki, and in order to do those, I needed to get my mom to come with me. My dad was at an event, so that wasn't a choice. I asked my mom and she very rudely declined. Reality is, she's very rude to me. I know that might sound weird coming from a daughter but, I believe in giving respect to earn it. I've given her fucking respect and haven't earned her's, causing my respect for her to turn to shit.. a big lump of shit. So, Nicki was freaking out, I was pissed and an anxiety attack was on it's way. I didn't want to draw, or whatever else. Music was my only option. Sooner or later, I was calmed. Nicki was fine, but I was still just a little annoyed. I also needed to take care of Zeppelin before I could hangout with a friend. So I just needed my mom to stop being a bitch and either go with me, or let me go myself. NOPE.
Our relationship is turning to shit because she isn't willing to compromise. Just like my relationship with Lilly... And I'm stuck with both of them. My relationship with my dad is okay. My sister... Ugh. My mom, shit. I hate living in this house. I'm just waiting for my great escape.
I think I have said before but, I just want to clarify. I'm a control freak when it comes to my life. I don't try controlling others unless they're trying to control me. If people try to control me and I can't do much about it, I will lose it.
I got to run the errands, finally. I got Zeppelin some fake vines w/ leaves, bedding, and a spray bottle to help with the humidity. Humidity is low where I live so, that's why shedding is a bit harder for him. He's doing good, though :) I put the spray bottle where it's like a mist and spray warm water mist on the leaves/vines.
I'll put a picture of what his terrarium looks like...
.He has a heating lamp, water, log-ish thing, a hollow half log-ish thing, fake leaves/vines, and a thermometer (so i can make sure he's at the right temperature) . The hollow half log-ish thing is under the leaves I bought today (the darker green). He wasn't in his terrarium when I took the picture, though)
And on the lid isn't a hole, just paint. The original owner and I have both tried removing it with no luck. It doesn't seem to bother Zeppelin so, I don't really mind it.
Well... I'm losing patience. I've been collecting some things for an art project I was going to work on with my art teacher. Yeah, well she welcomed herself to throw it all away... I only have what I had in my cabinet drawer. Not even half of what she threw away. I only needed four other things before I was done. Welp, not any more.
It wasn't like I had it in her space or like it had any bad smells. It had no smells and she had zero reasons to throw it away. She could've just said she wanted it elsewhere but, no. Throwing it away is apparently more logical.
"Some days life is all about your dreams, hopes and visions for the future. But there are some days where life is just about putting one foot in front of the other. And that's okay."