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So I searched through my laptop for some old photos and found many. Here are the ones I think are the most beautiful
Mostly the pictures are sea at sundown :3
and this one is surprisingly not a sundown haha it's from like 6(ish) years ago.
LAKE & RIVER
That's a river that's in my home town.
well.. this one is not a picture of the river but it was taken from the river (the previous one was taken from the bridge you can see on the this one)
That's me on the rocks :3
This was taken a bit out of my home town but it's the same river.
And this is the lake about an hour drive away from where I live
That's what it looks like from the town (the ruins on the left used to be a castle in the middle ages)
On the way up to it
From the top
View of the city
Mountains and plateaus you can see from the top
On my way down
View of the mountains from ''Mali grad''
That's my friend by the castle.
And some random pictures I took there
AND SOME MORE PICTURES OF MOUNTAINS
When Mia and I got lost in the woods x)
I took that about 3 years ago. (I was on some hill with a friend and we were taking pictures and everyone was watching us because we were like on the highest spot there. It was like we'd be on stage haha)
And just another picture I find nice to look at
So, I was FINALLY able to get some black lipstick. I think I'm just going to say fuck it and not care what others think about me wearing black lipstick. Wish me luck...
I removed the picture because, well, the same reason I only put my facebook profile picture of my eyeliner just temporarily.
So I'we drawn the clown monster. This is the only idea I have so I hope you'll like it. :/ And it's not drawn so good as the previous monster but I think you'll get the idea :)
Chris made a video apologising about what happened and posted it on YouTube. Did you see it? what do you think? If you didn't see it here's the link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vKYmh_u4GY
This is my cat, Charlie. He's the oldest, but sweetest.
This is Callie. She hangs out with me the most x)
And this is Sender. He's the one who had gotten injured a while ago. He's doing great now and his fur is growing back well. He's the youngest.
Lucy; my dog
Zeppelin; my corn snake
Alya; my mouse
Shiloh; my ball python
Nibbles; my rat - and Alya's best friend :3
Haven; my lop eared bunny
Vertigo; my 2nd lop eared bunny
Mojo; my bearded dragon
So I've copy pasted what I wrote to you like half a year ago about daydreaming. I don't think I changed anything in that time but yeah as you said about yours it also stands for mine: I was very young when I started with this so some things are not the most logical or well.. you know :P
well.. I have no idea how to write that. I’am not the best at telling stories. I usually just stick with poems. So I think I'll start by explaining how my stories are made. I my stories my name is Clarissa. I used to call myself Leyla but now I’m Clarissa. why did I change my name? I'm not sure. It just happend. I didnt even realize it for some time. I think it's because of my real life. when I called myself Leyla I was at my worst. When I wasn't thinking about Leyla I was thinking of ways to end my life so it would look like it was an accident and not a suicide. but fortunately there was something that was holding me back from doing so. Clarissa is the same person as Leyla was. the only difference is that my real name is more alike to name Clarissa than to name Leyla. (my name can actually be made from tossing letters C,L,A,R,I,S,S,A around and taking few letters away). and I didn't do that on purpose. It just happened unconsciously. now.. that’s all there is to the name and it’s time to explain the makeing of stories. I love watching series and anime. that's where my story usually originates from. what kind of story is going on in my head depends on what I was watching. I add myself and my characters in their story and change it on my own so (well I do dream about meeting them but who doesn't? :P that's different) and I kind the story becomes mine. I watch youtubers as well but I never daydream about that of dont get why. may be because youtubers are actually real people.. but then again I do add real people (as my friends) to my stories.. so I dont get that. some stories are also based on music. it's like I'd make my own video spot for the music. and sometimes I connect music, anime and series in one story and I like those the most.
well here is one of the stories that are playing in my head.
I woke up in a warm room. Afraid to look what's going on around me my eyes were still shot. ''but she's just a child. we can’t just live her by herself'' said a female voice coming from the other side of the room. ''well we wont be doing her any favour keeping her with us!'' said mail voice. What happened? says the voice in my head. The last thing I remember was me and Emilia running... Emily!! where is she? I immediately open my eyes, set up and in panic and start looking for her. she's nowhere to be seen. but at least I find something familiar. besides me is lying down and keeping me warm with her white fur my dog, Shayla. she looks calm and before I know it I start crying, put my arms around shaila and cuddle myself closer to her. ''Hi, what's your name?'' I look up and see a woman. short brown hair, long just enough to lightly touch her shoulders, brown eyes and a welcoming face with a smile. She seems nice. I don't think she's here to hurt me. but still I can't speak. ''how old are you?'' she asks. I want to reply but I just can't. It's ok. Emely will answer instead of me. she always does. she's brave and not afraid of everything like I am. But.. Emely’s not here. I burst into tears again and hide my face in shayla's fur. Clarissa. is it so hard to say my name? I look up to her. her face now seems worried but still welcoming. I try to say it but nothing comes out of my mouth. she turns away walks on the other side of the room and disappears behind a corner. I realize that me and Shayla are lying on a warm and soft blanket by the fireplace. as I look around the room I spot two other figures standing by the window. they both are slim men with short hair. one has a dark cloak over his dark trousers and his hair is blonde. he seems to be about to go outside. or maybe he just came back in. I'm not sure. The other one has a red short sleeve t-shirt and long dark trousers. His hair is red as his t-shirt. He looks like he just woke up. they're both standing quiety by the window and are looking at me.The woman comes back with a cup of tea and a slice of bread. she puts it down by me on the blanket and says '' My name is Karen.’’ she points her finger at a red haired man‘’this is Kay'' she moves her pointing finger to point at blonde haired men ''and this is Nathan''. She lowers her hands and pushes tea and bred closer to me. ''have something to eat. if you need anything call me. I'll be right here'' she points to the kitchen table, stands up and starts walking away.I sit up in a flash ''Clarissa!'' I say very loud all of a sudden. Even I wasn't expecting that. she turns around and looks at me. ''My name is Clarissa. I am three years old.'' I say in a lower voice. she turns around and is about to say something but I interrupt her and say ''I wanna go home''. She looks at me with her sorry eyes and says ''Clarissa. From now on this is your home''. she kneels beside me and continues ''your previous home had an accident. Nathan brought you here when he found you unconscious on the back of your dog not far from burning house''. I didn't understand a thing she said. all I can think about is going home to my older sister Naomi, my tween sister Emilia and my mom. ow.. and my dad would be there as well. ''I wanna go home'' I say almost whispering ‘’I’m sorry’’ she replies in a normal voice. I put my head on Shaila and close my eyes thinking: when I fel asleep at my house I woke up here. maybe if I fall beck to sleep I'll wake up at my house.
But I didn't. and so I stayed with Karen, Kay and Nathan. But I missed my family and I was keep asking to go home. so one day.. about two years later..
''young lady you look very pretty tonight'' sais Karen after she finishes hair styling my hair. ''she always does''. sas Kay peeping from kitchen. ''I wish my sisters would see me. you could make the same hairstyle on Emily.''I say with a very excited voice looking at Karen. her eyes are proudly smiling. Is she so proud of her hairstyle? but she's done it a hundred times before. no.. it's not that. her eyes are just like moms. When emily and I went in forest and brought her flowers. she took two white flowers out of bouquet, put them in our hair and said: '' I am weary proud of you girls. you're so kind and beautiful.'' I think Karen's proud of me. Just like mom was.. mom.. ''when can I go home?'' my eyes are suddenly directed to my feet and my voice is quieter and calmer. karens eyes turn sad, almost like she could feel my feelings. I dont want her to be sad. but what can I do? I look over to where Kay was standing maybe he can help her. but he's not there anymore. I look back at Karen but she's not looking at me anymore. she's looking behind me. I look over and see Nathan sitting on a sofa . I didn't think he was paying any attention to us before.but now he looked angry looking from me to Karen and back to me. ''Come on Clarissa. We're going on a walk'' he said. Is he angry on me? is he angry because I made Karen sad? I didn't mean to. But why does he want to go for a walk? ''I'm sorry Karen, I'm sorry Nathan'' I say looking at my feet. I don't exactly know what I did wrong. but I don't want any of them to be sad or angry. I love them all. ''Clary.. it's not your fault'' says nathan. his expression just went from angry looking men about to punch a hole in the wall to the most compassionable, almost crying sad looking face. great. now I made him sad as well. I run over across the room, climb on a sofa and hug nathan. ''I'm sorry for making you sad and engry.'' I say. ''we're sad because you're sad'' says Karen. ''and I wasn't angry on you.'' says Nathan. I reply '' who were you angry on then?'' after a moment of silence he replies: ''come on.. there's something I need to show you. go get your coat, we're going for a walk''.
outside of the house I was standing on the porch it all looked peaceful as always. the lawn in front of the house was covered in snow, animals with winter coats were hiding in the forest that was all around our house. while I was observing the nature something swished by me coming out of the house. it was Shaila. With her white fur she blended in with the snow. She was happily jumping around it and playing with the snow it looked fun so I joined her. while we were playing I totally forgot why I got outside on the first place. but then after about ten minutes:
the door of the house flew open I immediately stopped playing and looked at the door. It was Nathan and he looked very angry. He was dressed in his winter clothes and ready to go for a walk that he promised. In her slippers running behind him it was Karen. she looked desperate and about to cry. ''Please don't do that Natan. she's too young''. she said. As Nathan was about to reply Kay swooped in. He also was in his slippers and short sleeved shirt. ''Karen! You can't protect her from this forever. She needs to know.'' Said Kay. he looked at me and said with a lot calmer voice ''Clarissa, come hire please''. All three of them were looking at me. I was used to them looking at me. They always knew what I was up to. but those looks were different. they were heavy. I walked back to the porch and it seemed like it was the longest walk of all times. when I got to Kya he kneeled down besides me, put one arm on my shoulder and said with a calm and soft voice ''Clary. this is going to be a long journey. promise me to always stick by Nathan. Do not leave his site by any time.'' I looked up to Karen. she was still about to cry but said nothing. I looked back to Kay and said: ''I promise''. Kay smiled at me, stood up and looked at Nathan. Nathan gently took my hand and he had a warm smile on his face. I don't know why is Karen so frustrated. Nathan And Kay both seem to be fine. I slip out of Nathan's hand, ran over at Karen and hug her legs. She put her hands around me and suddenly I felt very safe. I looked up at her and said: '' I'll be back soon. I'll miss you.'' she replied ''I'll miss you to'' I stepped away from her, took Nathan's hand and side ''By'' Kay and Kren both said at the same time: ''by''. we walked off to the forest and Shaila followed us. at first she was all playful. she was jumping around us and playing with snow but the deeper to the forest we went the calmer she became. After some time I got really tired so Nathan carried me on his back and I fell asleep. when I woke up it was dark. but the place we were at seemed very familiar. Nathan put me on the ground and as I started to look around we were still at the woods but the place seemed familiar. immediately my eyes started to get wet. with one hand I held Nathan's hand as tight I could and I put the other hand on shailas head. I didn't want to be alone here. It was the place where I used to live. but it used to be full of life and warm. now it felt really cold. I know I wanted to go back but I wanted to go there because of my family. but at that time I realized they're gone. the memories of that day came crushing down. the memories I blocked out of my mind ountil now. Emily and I were playing in forest as we heard a loud scream. in miles there was no other house but ours. So we immediately knew where the scream was coming from. along with Shaila and Shin (Shin is Sheilas brother. He is exactly the same as Shaila except his furr is dark gray) we ren beck to the house. but there was smoke coming from all over the house. I stopped in front of the house. I was too afraid to go on. shaila stopped besides me. but Emily ran right in the house followed by shin. I wanted to go behind her but my legs just wouldn't move. anyhow I was still very close to the house and the smoke coming from inside started to affect me. I felt weak and I couldn't stand anymore. so I collapsed. but at the same time my older sister Naomi came running from house and she caught me. I started to ask where is Emily but she just put me on Shaila back, turned shaila away from the house and told her to run. I looked back to see if she's following us but she ran back inside the house. the next thing I know is me waking up at Karen, kay and Nathans place.
We were walking towards the place now where the house used to be. but when we got there the only thing standing there was some burned wood. ''this is all that's left of your house Clarisa'' said Nathan. I couldn't reply. tears started to burst out of my eyes. ''Mommy!'' I started to yell. but nothing happened. again. ''Mommy!''. Nothing. I didn't think it was possible but my tears started to fall even faster. I let go of Nathans hand and started to run towards the house. but he caught me. he lifted me up and at the same time I yelled for Emily. but still nothing. I put my hands around Nathan's neck and hugged him as tight as I could. for few minutes he just stood there and I was crying on his shoulders. after few minutes he put me on the ground and kneeled besides me. ''Clarissa this is what's left of your house. you can not go any closer. I've seen it from close and I found some things I do not want you to see. your parents and sisters are gone. you're with us now.'' he said. and at that moment I realised that I will never see them again.
well literally I could go on like that forever. this stories are made slowly and by small pieces. but by years I combined them. the first part is about how I get separated from my family, the 2nd part is how I adopt to my new family and the 3rd part is the realization that my real family is gone. but that goes on to 4th part where I get lost in the woods and find a village and by the village I find girl that looks like me and with her is a dog that looks like Sheila just that he is darker, 5th part is where I find out tat girl was Emily and she's not dead (obviously). 6th part is where I get to know Emily's life and story. she lives with a boy (Leo) that is 2 years older than us. she used to live with his family (oulder brother and parents) but they died in an accident 7th part Kay Karen and Nathan force me to move in with Emily 8th part how I adopt to my new life and I become great friends with Felix that is also an orphan and is Leo's schoolmate and they hate each other so that part is quite hilarious cuz they're always at each other throats but they also help each other alot so at the end they became great friends themselves 9th part is where I figure out that Nathan Karen and Kay used to work for someone that wanted to illegally take over the village and turn it into a minefield but when they started to raise me they changed their minds, but the village didnt know that and didnt want to hear for that. they just wanted all 3 of them in their prison where they'd have to work like slaves. and that is why Nathan, Kay and Karen forced me to move away from them. and in the process of catching them one of the village workers kills Nathan. Kay and Karen get away. 10th part: I find out that Nathan is dead and want to go back to where I lived with them. I don't want to live in this village anymore. Emily, Leo and Felix (and of course Shaila and Shin) are all by my side at all times. When I get to my old home I figure out that Karen and Kay are planning to avenge Nathan and somehow hurt the village but we convince them not to and all 4 of us move in with Karen and Kay. 11th part: we all go to city and we're having fun, kidding around and than there I see at grocery booth a poor girl that looks familiar but her clothes are torn and she can't afford any food so she appears to sometimes steal the food so the seller is rude to her and chases her away. so before I can get a good look on her she runs away. but about a day later Emily and I hear a song that Mom used to sing to us before we went to bed so we follow it and see that the same girl form the booth is singing the song. and it's Naomi. 12th part: we learn the whole story. father killed mother because he lost his mind, Naomi saw it so the scream we heard from the woods was Naomi, when Emely went in the house she lost her consciousness so after Naomi saved me she went in the house to and saved Emily the same way (she put her on Shin's back and told him to run) but when Naomi wanted to run away father caught up to her and since then he's been abusing her. 13th part: by that time Em and I are about 17, Naome is about 20 and Felix and Leo are 19. Naomi was supposed to sing in a bar to earn some money (all the money they get is by naomi singing in a bar) we know that father will be there to drink up all the money she earns right away. so we make a plan. Naomi is singing the song mom used to sing to us and somewhere in the middle of the song Emily and I join in and sing with her. of course father recognises us and attempts to take all 3 of us with him but when Leo and Felix step infront of us he just gives up. that's where I left off. probably when Karen and Kay find out what we did they'll be pissed and then Naomi will move in with us and.. idk... we will see :)
there's a lot of different stories but I kinda like that one the most.. there's one where Emily and I are from the world where we have super powers and Shaila and Shin can grow super big (like few meters tall) and they're not brother and sister so they have a baby dog named Kira... anyhow I find a portal to this world but I have no powers here so I live double life with emilia and no one knows about that. in this world we both pretend to be me. we never come here by the same time and we look the same so people buy the story and have no idea there's 2 of us. but someday something happens when I'm here and I have no choice but to bring some of friends from this world to the world with supper powers and then there I pretend I dont know what's going on and they all start to figure out about the supper powers and Emily and I are trying to get them back to their world as soon as possible.
there's also the one where where Shaila and Shin are wolves and we live with them in the forrest.
and well it goes on and on and on…
So, for now, I'm just going to put what's been going on. I'll put the tweets and videos.
So, here's the link to the assault video -
So, Deefizzy saw the video and how it was clearly fake. Here's his tweets and Chris's reasponse
Link - https://twitter.com/deefizzy/status/755335382514802689
Chris's apologizes -
So, I just can't be able to wrap up their story... I might send you their story if I ever get myself to finish writing it. For some reason, it just feels impossible. I will do my best to describe what they're like and why.
All images I mention are at the bottom of the post
With Nicki and Damon, it was like me making who I wish I was. I have taken some of their traits (or embraced them at least). Like their emotional strength.
So, I'll start with their appearances.
Damon's stands out most. Damon is caucasian, muscular (not because I find that body type attractive (I can honestly say, I have no preference as long as they're happy). It's because of his back story which I'll explain later), and his right eye is a green-blue. The left side of his iris starts out green and blends into the right side of his iris which is blue. His left eye is a red-purple. The outer part of his iris is a dark red which blends into the inner part of the iris which is purple. I made an example. I was in a hurry so, I know it's really sloppy, it was just to give you a better image incase the description confused you. The green-blue eye isn't that badly done though, but the purple-red one didn't turn out how I wanted. But, it should give you an idea of what I meant.
Damon dyes his hair many colors but it's naturally black (sometimes I make it dirty blonde, though x3 ). He usually has hairstyles like these examples-
He has always been tall but ends up being 6'4 (six feet four inches). One of damon's ears are also elf-like. I put an example image. Damon also has an eyebrow, lip, and nose piercing (spider bite lip piercing).
Nicki is also caucasian, but anorexic for a while but in her later teens gets to a healthy weight. Her hair is dirty blond to a light brown hair. She dyes her hair sometimes but, not often. Her height goes from short to tall but in the end it's 5'11. Her eyes are a blue-brown like shown below. He hair is like this : http://www.herinterest.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/Top_100_Long_Layered_Hairstyles_058.jpg. But longer... And yes, that's Demi Lovato. Nicki also has a nose, tongue, and lip piercing (angel bite lip piercing).
Now a bit on their back stories.
I put a picture showing their families. Nicki's last name is Hart and Damon's is Lush. I put them in age order too, Since I put that, I'm going to stop clarifying how someone is connected to another (like saying sister, mom, etc). Btw, I know their stories are similar and not too realistic... I created this more when I was younger and when I was very depressed.
The town :
It's small. There is a hill that Damon and Nicki's families live on. If they go down one side of the hill, it takes them to a nice part of the town. Which, really is just known as the town because the other side is a wreck.
Linda's mom died of illness when she was young. So, her aunt took her in. Her aunt also had a daughter (her cousin) Jenna who is the opposite of her. She basically has this anger towards Jenna. At one point she runs away with a man who leaves her with her daughter Courtney. They introduced Irene as her mom and Linda as her sister. When Courtney finds out that Linda is actually her mom, she is very angry. Linda, again, runs off leaving Irene with Courtney. She ends up having twin boys but, comes back with them very sick asking for help. The father of the twin boys is Linda's boyfriend who uses her but, Linda has it in her head that they're meant to be. She always goes back to him no matter what he does to her. This time, they raise the kids with them knowing Linda is their mom. But, they don't call Linda "Mom", or George "Grandpa" or etc. They always call them by their first names no matter how many times they're corrected. Courtney is a year older than Grayson and Miles. Until they're three or older, Irene and George take care of them. Yet again, Linda comes to her parents pregnant four years after Grayson and Miles. Pregnant with twins, again. When they're born people always treat them special. The twins had different colored eyes and one twin an elf-like ear. This immediately makes her have hatred for the boys, especially Damon.
Linda abandons Damon and Liam but takes Grayson, Miles, and Courtney. Linda would never allow Jenna around her kids, but when she left, Irene invited Jenna to see the twins. Jenna ends up playing the role of their mom. They call her mom but she always corrects them that it's "Auntie". When the boys are six, Linda comes back drunk. When she sees that Jenna was with the boys she freaked out and demanded she get her kids back. She gets the boys at one point and continuously moves to keep Jenna or Irene from trying to take the children back. She's very abusive as she's always either high or drunk. She does whatever she can do to ignore her issues. Damon and Liam are also pushed around at school because they're vulnerable to being abused. The small town knows something is wrong but does their best to pretend things are okay.
Damon gets use to it and just is strong for the sake of his siblings. Liam goes numb to it. Grayson and Miles are always "busy" but help with getting money and training their siblings (mostly Damon and somewhat Liam) to fight. Once Liam, Damon, Alexa and Ellie get use to it, Courtney, Grayson, and Miles all practically seem to disappear. Courtney is doing her own thing, meanwhile Miles and Grayson stick together.
(it does continue but, I'm going to go to Nicki and then back to Damon. It'll make sense later)
Nicki's mom also had her when she was young but, not as young as Linda. Jonathan and Nicki are five years apart. Jonathan is taken care of by his grandparents and somewhat by Miranda until he was eight (so, Nicki was three). Miranda got stressed and took the kids to the man who impregnated her. She left them with him and lied to her parents that she had them well taken care of. The parents didn't find out the truth until it was too late. Nicki doesn't really remember Miranda or even what things were like. Jonathan remembers it better than anything so, he can always tell her in great detail. Their dad is abusive when he's drunk but what he does that is their main worry is, he will let his friends do what they wish for money. Jonathan has always been able to protect Nicki from them but, he's struggled to always keep himself safe too.. At one point, Jonathan was practically sold. He knew about it and that he wasn't going to escape it. He couldn't promise he would at least. He told his best friend, Grayson, about it. Grayson was a year younger than him but, he felt like he could trust Grayson. Even though others were afraid of Grayson and Miles, he knew that they were people to trust. He asks if Grayson and Miles can look after Nicki but, they say they're too busy to make sure nothing happens to her like Jonathan can. Miles mentions that Damon has always been good at protecting their younger siblings. When Damon agrees to try his best to protect Nicki, after a few weeks, Jonathan is gone. Taken.
Nicki isn't used to Damon and almost hates him for thinking he could replace Jonathan.
After a while, she realizes all that Damon has done and that he truly just wants to help her.
Liam earns enough money for a camera. It's always been Liam's wish to expose Linda. He records their abuse and uploads it. Long story short, they're taken from Linda. Damon is in the hospital getting his far too long ignored injuries treated. Before Jenna can, Damon is adopted by a man named Dustin. Dustin has three roommates, Jay, Lance, and Chris. Jenna talks with them and they end up deciding that Jenna would have custody of Damon's other siblings and Dustin would have custody of Damon. The kids would be free to visit any house and they actually live in the nice side of town and near each other. Damon, his siblings and Nicki are put in a good school and are very well taken care of.
Btw, when Nicki is in her twenties, Jonathan and her a reunited. Jonathan escaped and after he got taken care of, he later was able to contact Nicki.